There are paths set up for us to explore what we may tentatively think of as our destinies, such as academic institutions, corporate career paths, bureaucratic runways. We struggle to fit ourselves into predefined boxes, we attempt to conform to some kind of standard of who we think we should be in order to be successful. Yet life itself continuously re-corrects our crooked paths, setting us back onto our journeys into ourselves. Whether we want to believe it or not. Often it is simply a matter of whether or not you accept where you need to go or whether you fight it every step of the way. Because it is quite easy to follow gravity. Because it is quite easy to fall in love. Because it is quite easy to move into the future with nothing but positivity in your gut.

Basically, if you are unsure, then this is the first sign of a problem. You should not be sure or unsure (remember that commercial, by the way?). All you ever need to be is yourself. If you have to change yourself to meet standards that are not your own, then that is unnatural. And every step that you take away from natural movement places you closer to the lip of disaster. Let’s take this idea quite literally: when you are hiking down steep rocky paths, any step you take which is not balanced could easily twist your ankle or worse. And to take balanced steps is not rocket science, considering that animals such as deer or goats or squirrels do this speedily all the time. Yet most people are unable to free themselves of their own minds enough to even perform this most basic of natural actions, simply because they have introduced themselves to disassociation and fear.

It’s like mankind is both a movement forward and a step backward. We move forward into the realm of the mind but step backward into the realm of fear and disassociation.

The movement into the future requires release and embrace. We already know where we need to go. We just need to fall into place.

Set paths are established for you to follow to emulate others and pretend you know what you are doing. But all along you are afraid and desperately uncertain, and every step grows more precarious, til you are only a tentative thread of a human being, connected to others only by name-brands and alma maters. Is this the path you want to follow?

The water flows directly to its source. It will find its way.


Author: manderson

I live in NYC.

One thought on “Destiny”

  1. Yes. Yes, Yes, Yes (as in I agree). Is all I can say. You capture unsaid, unwritten words in me, that are somewhere, wanting to spill out. And when i read your pieces, it’s like I had been waiting to read them.

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