Love is an everchanging,
up and down sine wave ride–
sometimes I push you away
just so I can find the space
only to find that I am suffocating
to think that I could lose you
I know when I’m being unfair,
when I’m being mean–
which is as much to say
that some part of me
hurts you deliberately.
I watch myself doing it,
I can only theorize
that I do it because I am scared
and I am looking to make something up
against you, so that I can run away.
Don’t let me run away, beloved.
Fight me, be aflame with righteous anger,
put me in my place–
which is next to you, with you, for you.
Be strong in yourself.
Don’t let me wallow in my fears
by digging into your insecurities.
I can be so cold to myself–
and now that you are in me, in my life,
in my every movement and thought,
I have to learn to be better
to myself, to all of the life
which resides within.
Don’t leave me alone.
Keep me burning, love.