journal entry from 3 years ago

I think we all, as human beings, share that basic fallibility to closing ourselves off from each other and refusing to let the whole truth come into our minds and hearts, and instead holding onto that little piece of self-validating blindness. It is a highly understandable weakness. And yet it is one of the greatest threats to our existence, I believe. All of us, all of us people. We only want to know what makes us feel accepted, content, desirable. And so we refuse to listen to sides of ourselves and other people that need to be heard.

I think it’s easy for me to be withdrawn and keep to myself, because then I always have the upper hand, because I’m not giving anything to anyone, I’m not putting myself out there. Thus, I’m protected. That’s the easy way. And no wonder I begin to classify people and reject them right away by certain behaviors or appearances. Because I’m not really listening to them, I’m not really dealing with them beyond their furthest projections.


Author: manderson

I live in NYC.

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